Let me love You...

[ inilah kisahku, maaf kerana guna bahasa Inggeris. semoga ia bermanfaat. ]

Last time,

It’s really hard for me to let you go.

You are the apple of my heart.

You are my guardian and my prince,

The king to my heart.

I just want to spend all my lifetime with you.

You are my true love.

But,

Sweetheart, what is true love?

I don’t understand that.

Unfortunately, we broke up.

This means you aren’t my true love.

Then , is true love ever exists?

This question playing like the music ,

In my mind, 

Keep me wonder and ponder.

Miserable moments passing by,

Scrolling down at the net.

A sentence caught my eyes.

“ When you try to take one step to be closer to Allah SWT, He’ll take a thousand step to be close to you. ”

taking one step closer, like how?

I didn’t pray exactly 5 times a day,

I don’t even khatam a Quran before,

My Hijab also on and off.

At the same time,

My desire to learn Islam is very high.

I learn like a Mualaf,

Only, I don’t know how to put Islam into my life.

Whenever I try, there’s people say…

“ It’s impossible for you to change. ”

Ok, I’ll prove to you …

I will change.

I do want to repent.

One day, I went to this Surau Ibadurrahman,

Somehow I feel so peaceful,

Looking at the Muslimin and Muslimat praying to Lord,

It’s so beautiful,

I wish I could be like you.

How can you all be so in love with Him.

I do want to love Him too.

But will Lord forgive all my sins?

Will Lord give me a chance to love Him?

everything starts here in Matrics, I learnt the true beauty about Islam.

The last day in matrics,

I went to the Surau again.

Alhamdullillah, I’m different from the first time I came into the surau.

I really wore the Hijab sincerely.

So, I sit in the middle of the Muslimat area,

Praying.

Oh Lord, Thank You for giving me this wonderful chance to Love You.

Alhamdullillah.

My tears fall.

It’s true that “ In every storm, there’s a rainbow behind. “

I did lose my first love,

Where at first I think it’s really hard to let go…

My life going to end and stuffs,

but I do get my True Love ,

which is my Lord.

SubhanALLAH. :)

“ When you try to take one step to be closer to Allah SWT, He’ll take a thousand step to be close to you. ”

That is why,

whenever I read this,

my heart cry.

this is so true.

Don’t forget , Allah SWT is the Best Listener.

He Knows whats in your heart.

You can never hide from Him.

So, lets take our first step… 

to be close to Him, InshaALLAH.  :)